Life is a bitch.

There are way too many of them for me right now. I need to remember what I need to do to get what I want and throw away all those distractions, all those people who are pulling me away from my goals. My life is sort of like everybody's agenda for school. We all have them for a few weeks, then we get lazy and eventually, don't care about school anymore because it's too hard. That's how I am right now. In the beginning, I told myself nothing would stop me from being dedicated and determined. It's only been 5 weeks into the school year and I have already failed.

On Friday, I went to Russell for the first time in 2 years. I miss that place. I miss being carefree, I miss the years where I actually had dreams and aspirations of what I wanted to achieve in life. Then, high school came and reality hit me. Now I realize that a lot of the things I want are impossible for me to get and I just have to learn to live with what I can get. I wish I had someone who would always look out for me, someone I know who would have my back no matter what. Everyone seems to have someone like that, except me.