No School Today

And what do I do? Stay at home and study all day -_- I'm seriously starting to regret taking all these ap/honors classes because they're really starting to stress me out. I'm starting to feel like giving up and we're only halfway through the first semester. It's just too much, being reminded that this is the year that determines your entire life. I remember in the beginning of the school year how determined I was to get good grades and study for the SAT's and everything. But now, I just feel that it's useless, that no matter how hard I try, it's just going to set me up for an even bigger disappointment. I need to find that motivation again. The stress is getting to me so bad, I'm not acting like me anymore. I've been snapping at people, just being a jerk in general. I feel really bad for taking it out on the people who care about me. I owe all of you an apology.

Cooooold!

Today was cold and sunny again! I hate this bipolar weather, I wish it would choose hot or cold and stick with it. Today I realized that I’m extremely close to a lot of girls, like close enough for them to tell you stuff no guy should ever hear in his life haha. But it’s all good, I still love them. So afterschool, I did behind the wheel training again, but the Indian guy who did it this time was cool, he let me only do 45 minutes lol. Today was a good day, really tired though.

I know we haven’t been close for a loong time, but now we are and I hope you know I still care about you a lot. You’re like a sister to me and it really hurt me, seeing you that sad. I hope you know I care about you a lot and if you ever need anything I will always be here for you, no matter what. I wish there was some way for me to make you feel better.

Football game tomorrow! We better beat Wilcox this year. And, Halloween on Saturday. This weekend is going to be fun.

Cooooold

it was today. I HATE this weather with a passion. I wish I were a bear so I could hibernate all through winter and wake up and have it be spring again. But noo, I have to drag myself out of bed in this freezing weather and try to stay awake in Feige's class. I swear, my room is like a freezer. I can see my freaking breath in the morning, wth. So I was a little cranky this morning cause it's Monday morning and the 49ers lost -_- But my day got progressively better because I now sit next to my beeeest friend Vicky in History, and I got a note from my sister Vy! Homecoming dance is in five days and I still need slacks and a tie. I don't know what I'm going to do haha. I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty excited though! I'm finally trying something new. Maybe I'll try a new sport this year, like badminton or something, too.

"Start appreciating the little things, and you will live a happy life."

Cousins

I wish I had more of them. But the few that I have are the best. I'm finally getting closer to them again, and I'm glad. Last night, Denise and I were scaring the shit outta ourselves by watching the preview and reading about that one movie, Paranormal Activity. Looks scary and I know I'll probably not be able to sleep or shower for a few months after, but I'm so freaking curious haha. Too bad the tickets were all sold out. Then tonight, my parents and aunts were telling stories of all the ghosts they seen during their childhood in Asia. Pretty creepy shit.

Anyways, I decided at the beginning of freshman year that I wouldn't be scared of trying new things and I would experience everything high school has to offer. Two years have passed and I still haven't done a lot of things, for example, go to a dance. So I think it's time for me to stop being lazy and boring and enjoy my high school career before it's too late.

Life is a bitch.

There are way too many of them for me right now. I need to remember what I need to do to get what I want and throw away all those distractions, all those people who are pulling me away from my goals. My life is sort of like everybody's agenda for school. We all have them for a few weeks, then we get lazy and eventually, don't care about school anymore because it's too hard. That's how I am right now. In the beginning, I told myself nothing would stop me from being dedicated and determined. It's only been 5 weeks into the school year and I have already failed.

On Friday, I went to Russell for the first time in 2 years. I miss that place. I miss being carefree, I miss the years where I actually had dreams and aspirations of what I wanted to achieve in life. Then, high school came and reality hit me. Now I realize that a lot of the things I want are impossible for me to get and I just have to learn to live with what I can get. I wish I had someone who would always look out for me, someone I know who would have my back no matter what. Everyone seems to have someone like that, except me.

Reliability

That is what I look for in a friend. I guess that's why I don't have many close friends cause once you let them in, who knows if they're going to just leave you when the times get tough or when you need them the most. I'm sure everyone has those friends: they're there for you when everything's going good, but once something goes wrong, they're gone. A lot of people are like that today, but this girl named Meera Narayanan is not one of them. She once asked me how I would describe her and I couldn't find the word for it. But today, I realized loyal or reliable is how I would describe her. She has always been there for me for the past three years like no one else. A lot of people have come and gone, but she has always been there. When I talk to her, I feel a lot better and life seems so much easier. I've felt like I had to try to be close to people before, but never with her, because I know she'll always be there for me, even if we do end up drifting apart. Meera knows me better than I know myself and despite having a big mouth in 8th grade, she has gotten a lot better and I trust her with everything now. Junior year is starting to get tougher and tougher, but I know I'll have a friend to help me get through it. Thank you for always being there for me.

Stress

Today, I had thoughts of hitting a female senior citizen. If I stay in Feige's class for an entire year, those thoughts might turn into actions. I swear, she is the worst teacher in the world, I mean who gives a class 2 freaking minutes to do a test?! I guess I can't complain, I mean at least we barely do any work. I don't like it when two entirely separate groups of people get together. It's like oil mixing with water. Clog rush was today, I think I'm going to join Key Club this year and actually go to more than one meeting haha. Junior year is starting to get really hard. All those AP classes are beginning to stress all of us out and I'm starting to have doubts whether I'll be able to handle it. I need some inspiration, something to motivate me to stop being so lazy and actually start working hard. I've been complaining recently about how I'm most likely not going to make it into the colleges I want to, but now it's time for me to stop complaining and start fighting for what I want. That's true for a lot of things right now, not just academics. I have to start fighting, instead of waiting for things to be given to me, cause at this point, that's not going to happen.

Vy, it's okay that Ms. Romero thought your drillsheet had too much space. You know why? Cause I say it didn't and that's all that matters right? Haha jk, but feel better though, there's always tomorrow and the next day.

Ashley, I really hope you're feeling better and that you don't have the swine flu. But even if you do, I'll still sit next to you in Precal haha. Good luck with your tennis game and chem test!

What a waste of a day

I hate when you make hella plans for the weekend and you think it's going to be really fun, and you're going to be out the whole 3 days. And you end up staying at home doing nothing. I also hate when teachers give out homework on the weekends of things they haven't even taught. Wtf. Today was a really frustating day, as you can tell. Actually, this whole weekend was frustrating. I also hate when people say "I'll call you back" when they really have no intention of doing so. Why don't you just say something else then? I don't understand how people can hate each other, then the next day be best friends. I don't know, I guess I just hold grudges against people.I hate that there are so many things I want to say, good and bad, but I just can't. There are so many things I want to tell so many people, but I know they won't be able to handle it. Today made me realize a lot of things about myself and a lot of people. I guess that's what happens when you stay at home, doing homework all day long on a holiday. One thing I realized was I really want to know what people say about me behind my back. I know everyone gets shit talked about them, even by their closest friends. Maybe this is just me, maybe I just don't trust people. I think it would have been a better day if we actually had school. Eh, whatever. Hopefully this next week will be a lot better than last week.

Random Day

School is alright, a lot of interesting things happening though. I think this year is going to be a lot better than last year. It was cold today, I'm starting to dread winter. I can't function in the cold. Football game was fun yesterday. I'm surprised our team was that good. Or maybe North Salinas just wasn't as great as everyone made them sound. They were some bigass white guys though haha.

Really bored today, just watched random, boring college football games till like 4. I fell asleep, and woke up to Victoria, Vy, and Ashley at the door. They brought me milk tea haha! Thanks, even though it was the cheap $1 one and all you guys had tapioca haha, jk! Glad they came over, we had a very interesting and good, looong talk. Haha I'm not a blabbermouth and wtf is a leprochaun?!

-I'm glad we're friends again after all that time. Hopefully I don't do anything stupid this time to mess it up.
-You need to open your eyes and stop thinking about yourself.
-I would describe you as a bitch, too. But you're a dependable, caring bitch :) You're also a great friend.

Crazy

is how I would describe this week. I'm pretty happy with my classes, happy with the people in them, and happy with everything going on in my life right now. I guess everything has fallen in place. I used to always feel like something was missing, but now, I feel that everything's there and I'm truly happy for the first time in a loong time. But it's Junior year, and it probably won't stay like this for long so I gotta enjoy it while I can.

1. What you did was just plain embarrassing. I'm ashamed to be associated with you.

2. It feels good to be appreciated :) It was a little surprising and I'm not gonna lie, if I were a girl, I would have cried haha. But I did smile a lot and I'm still smiling now. Thanks guys, you're the best. I know I'm not the type to show my emotions or how I feel, but I really care about you guys. We been through so much, that I know you're all gonna be there for me when I need you the most, always. You guys have been there for me thick and thin, through the good and the many many bad. You've supported me through everything I've been through, and I know I can trust you guys with anything and everything. Thank you for everything you've done, I love you guys.

2nd Day

is always harder than the first. I felt so tired today, and I'm already tired of waking up early. Just 178 more days to go :[ I swear, if I have to go the whole year in Feige's class, I'm going to shoot myself. We've been talking about the green sheet for two wholes days now -_- Second is going to be fun, cause Kristina's always making herself look like a fool haha. Ashley's such a distraction in Algebra, she won't let me learn! Got a test tomorrow already for APUSH, that's gonna be fun and an essay for English. I hate it when you ask a question in front of the whole class that seems like a good question in your mind, but when you say it out loud, you realize how freaking obvious it is and you make yourself look like a fool haha. My brother came back home from college for the first time. When he leaves, I finally get my own room in 3 more weeks!

Summer,

seems like a looong time ago. It feels like last school year never ended and summer was just a long weekend or short break. Today didn't even feel like the first day. I miss the freedom of summer, now it's just going to be homework, studying, and STRESS -_-

I'm pretty happy with my classes, but I wish I had more people I knew in them. The only classes I hate are 1st and 3rd so far. Ms. Feige talks way too much and I don't know anybody in Bautista's. My 2nd period is going to be fun, I think. My history teacher has OCD and I think he also has ADD. We already have hella homework and tests this week for him. Ducote's alright though and I sit next to Vicky haha. AP Bio is filled with a bunch of seniors that I don't know except for Ashley T. and Chris Tran. Hanley seems like a nice teacher, but he stumbles on his words a lot haha. We had a quiz today and we got an inclass essay tomorrow, buutttt Cecilia's in my class!

Maybe I'll meet someone new this year, someone who doesn't ditch me the first chance they get.

Wow,

I'm a Junior.

Meera

"Do cows pee out of their udders?"

hahaha

Junior year

starts in a week :[ My schedule is: 1. Spanish 3-Feige, 2. Computers-Hutchinson, 3. Precal-Bautista, 4. Ap US History-Ducote, 5. Psychology-Salazar, 6. Honors English-Hanley. I don't know anybody in any of my classes.

Anyways, registration was alright, nice seeing everyone again. Me and Francis were thinking about switching tickets and taking each others pictures haha. I wonder how much trouble we would get into. My ID picture this year was weird, the lady didn't even tell me to tilt my head, so my huge adam's apple looks like a damn tumor on my neck haha.

Meera and Courtney came over to see my new puppy, Kobe. He's a 5 week old Border Collie and he bites my toes and unties my shoes.

Went to play basketball with my cousin, and saw Ashley there. Attempted to play tennis with her and her padre, and I almost got in by the ball hella times haha. Ashley's hella good! I'm going to practice a lot and beat her one day, that's one of my goals for the end of junior year haha.

I'm hella dreading the end of summer and start of school. I hate how there's no freedom once school starts and I hate how you have to wake up early. It's going to be hard cause everyone's taking AP and honors classes, but maybe it won't be as bad as we all think it's going to be.

Vy and Meera,

you've been at my house too much. The remote fell on the floor and my sister, brother, and me said "Wooooow", in the exact same annoying voice you guys do haha!

The ugly truth is a funny movie.

I just realized today

that Rock Band is mindnumbingly boring to watch. Vicky, Meera, and Vy were playing it for 5 hours and I was about to shoot myself if I had a gun haha. It was fun though and it took us like 217893124132 tries to unlock all the songs haha. After I begged them for 2 hours to stop playing, we went to Tapioca and Vicky bought me milk tea! Thanks a lot, bro! Then, we told scary stories in my front yard and I gotta admit, some of those stories were really scary, almost made me not want to shower haha. But Vicky still won't let me tell her my helllllaaa scary story about the poster lol. It was a fun day, hopefully all the rest of my days of summer are like this.

Summer

sucks! I've gotten less sleep than when we had school, and I've had two classes so far so school never really ended for me. I got a B in physics :[ I thought I did better than that. We only have 3 weeks left and I haven't hung out with anybody.

"Shit Happens"

is something people say a lot. But it seems like shit only seems to happen to me. Yesterday, physics class finally ended but guess what? I have an SAT class for two weeks, every single day that starts tomorrow. So when that ends, I have at most, 2 weeks to enjoy my summer. But I probably won't be able to because I still have to do my Honors English homework AND AP US History homework. ANNDDD, I think I might have broken my ankle. What a great fucking summer, huh?

It seems like

school never ended. Freaking physics class every day and now I'm studying for finals cause tomorrows the last day. BUTT, in 3 days, i start my SAT class which is for two weeks every single day. So after that ends, I have 1.5 weeks to enjoy my summer -_-

There have been some fun days this summer though, like hanging out with Vy all day yesterday =) I'm surprised we didn't end up killing each other. It was nice talking to her again after not seeing her all summer.

Victoria, you owe me a post on your blog allll about me!

Thanks for being there for me when nobody else was =)

The Longest Day(s) of My Life

I have only had 2 hours of sleep over the past 31 hours. Relay for Life was pretty fun i guess. Went at 3, helped set up and had to carry the HELLA heavy sand. Victoria, you're a pansy haha. Then served dinner and played rugball with Rhodan, Chris D., Chris T., Bryan C., Hong, Thuy, and Andrea. Pretty fun until they turned off the lights lol. Walked around with Leslie, Meera, Bryan, Jimmy the entire night, and it was fun just talking. But it was helllaaa cold, and I was a dumbass and decided not to bring a sweater. I couldn't sleep cause there were loudass people outside the tent, and Caroline was snoring into my ear, and Vy snores like a man hahaha. So I left at 6 am cause I had to go to work at 9, so I drank like 10 cups of coffee to go along with the 10 cups that I drank last night already. Omg, it was my first day, and I hate it already! The smell of the popcorn is sickening and I crashed around 2 and almost fainted in the popcorn haha. So I went home and tried to sleep, but my whole body is freaking cold and my temperature is 99.2. I have to get better by tonight, cause I have work again tomorrow morning at 8 :(

1.)Wow, you're a bitch
2.) You have changed so much, it's sad
3.) Thanks for not ditching me
4.) I love you guys

So far,

this summer has been unbelievably busy. Class from 9-1, and work early in the morning and late at night. Physics is hella hard, whoever is taking it next year, I feel sorry for you. The people in the class make it hella fun though haha. Mariel, Kristina, Joann, Tram, Caroline, Kevin M., Kevin N., Jonathan. The teacher has a really bad Russian accent. And she teaches really fast, so I'm hella lost already. We have a quiz Monday, and I don't even have a book yet :[

Today was hellllaa funny though haha. Everyone in the class was doing a myspace survey together over aim. "She wishes her daddy would stop whipping out her belt and whip out something else..." hahahaha! Too bad Tram accidentally deleted the bulletin though, but at least Myspace will never know how weird we are haha.

Tomorrow is Relay for Life, I hope it's fun and not at all like last year.

LAKERS!!!!

FINALLY!

This Week

really sucks

1.) I really hate finals
2.) Lakers better win today
3.) I hate how life is so unfair
4.) Thanks for always being there for me
5.) I'm glad we're getting talking more
&I'm surprised you cared
6.) You're fucking stupid

Today, I went

to Russell's track meet at MHS cause my brother's on the team, and I realized that everybody there was tiny. I felt like a giant. They were so short and skinny, it made me wonder, were we all that small back then, or is it just this generation that's so tiny? Russell got a lost faster and Rancho got hella slower. Maybe Russell will actually beat them this year. But going to the track meet kinda made me remember 8th grade and how easygoing and laidback it was. School was so easy, and there was no stress about college or SAT scores or class rank or GPAs. I wish I had made the most of it, but now it's too late.

I miss

waking up at 12 pm. 1st and 2nd periods were helllllllaaaa looooonnggggggg. And in 2nd period, we switched seats so now i sit next to gagan who is trying to be a hippy. I miss spring break but I want school to end already. We only got 6 more weeks and 32 school days left.

Today

was a pretty good day. I woke up and my back didn't hurt as much. I think I'm gonna play basketball tomorrow. Finished lab crap for chemistry and the thing for the chemistry project. Now I still gotta learn how to make an agar dish. Anybody know how? Then went to go hang out with Ashley Nguyen and Vy. We went to Burger King and Ashley tripped in this HUGE hole in the front. Hahaha that hella made me laugh! She always trips and gets into embarrassing situations haha. Afterwards, walked to the library so Vy could check out her Junie B. Jones book, and I won a bet with her so I only owe her $95 now. Just hung out and talked till like 6. It was a pretty fun day.

I'm a horrible friend.

Spring break

has been pretty fun so far. I've gone out every single day of the week, and it all seems like one looong day. I finally finished drivers ed!! Took me from 12 PM till 4 AM yesterday, but at least I got it done. Now I gotta wait 5-7 business days to get my certificate so I'll probably take my permit test next week. I can't wait to start driving.

So I planned on working out and running and playing basketball and getting into shape every day of this week. It didn't work out like I planned cause once again, my weak, old man's body quit on me again. I was playing basketball on Monday with cousins and some friends and Steven Fanua (I know, random huh?) and I drove in and something in my back snapped or something and I blacked out for a second. So it's been 3 days so far and it's getting a little better but it still hurts like hell. I hope it's better by tomorrow cause I really wanna play basketball again.

I think it's stupid how the weather can go from 90's for three days to 60's the next. I wanna move to a place where it's warm all year long, like Hawaii. That would be nice.

Today...

was the looongest day in my life. We had testing from 8-10:20 and then we had to go to our first four classes. Hella stupid. The History test was hella easy. At lunch, me and Russell drove to Carl’s Jr. and bought $40 worth of food haha. The lady at the window was probably expecting a family of 10, cause she looked hella surprised when she saw that it was just two people haha. Then we had to hurry back to school and give everybody their stuff. Then I had to rush back to 3rd period and fill out the application to Mission before my counselors appointment and then after the appointment, I went Mr. McMurray hunting to talk to him about my stupid referral. I couldn’t find him :( and as I was walking out of the office, I see Merrick’s dog Caramel right in front of me haha. I called our her name and she ran away from me towards Nob Hill hahaha. So afterschool, I found Mr. McMurray at the office, and everything’s fine now. So all in all, today was a looong and stressful day, but it was a good day. Now I gotta do my essay and lab :[

Spring break and NBA playoffs start in two days!!

Homework

sucks and is hard to do when you can't think straight. So I'm gonna take a break and try again later. Today was a pretty good day. Even though I slept hella early, at 11, I still woke up hella tired again. I don't know what's wrong with me. Anyways, the math star testing was HELLA hard. The complex numbers shit was hella confusing and I didn't know any of it. I hate how there's always one or two people in my class that finish hella later than everybody else and you just gotta sit there and wait... Lunch was pretty good. Vy, you gotta learn to peel your own freaking oranges! Haha. Nothing much happened 4th, 5th, and 6th periods. Afterschool, went to go turn in Read to Succeed Volunteer applications with Ashley, who looked like Victoria lol. Then, had to go to the library for another volunteer orientation thing... and found out it got canceled. I'm hella confused about classes at Mission, and nobody else seems to know what to do either. I'm gonna ask my counselor tomorrow, hopefully it will clear things up. I'm going to try doing my homework now.

p.s. NBA playoffs start this Saturday!!

p.p.s. You get really annoying sometimes.

STAR Testing

sucked. The air conditioning in Vargas' room was on and it was hella cold outside already. I like the testing schedule though. Just four more days to go. So yesterday I was playing basketball with Andrew, Merrick, Alex, and Phillip and I hurt my back again. I feel like an old man, I can barely stand up straight. At lunch, Punjab poured water on Kevin's back and ran away like a little bitch. I wish he would have stayed cause I would have loved to beat his ass. Too bad he's too much of a pussy to say anything to my face.

Today is a very long day, I want to go home already. But I gotta go talk to Mr. McMurray about the stupid referral I got for no freaking reason. I think the way our school does things is stupid. And after that, I gotta go find that Tutoring Club place and look for a job cause I really need money. But I don't know if I can cause I'm planning on taking physics at Mission this summer and I have a lot of community service shit to go to. This summer and next school year is gonna be crazy for me, I hope I can handle all of it.

I was talking to Bryan C and Cindy Do today in 2nd period, and I realized my life is hella boring compared to theirs. They always have something going on in their life and I never have anything. I need to go buy a more exciting life.

Computers class

is a waste of time. I never do work. I don't know if I wanna be in DBA next year. There's so many immature people in my class, especially first period today. They need to grow up already. But I think I'm gonna stay cause we have hella field trips and we get out of class a lot.

I'm hella mad. I woke up Saturday morning to my little brother saying "You got a referral?!" Turns out it was cause Frank got caught copying my homework in Algebra class, which is bullshit cause it's just a stupid homework assignment, not a freaking test. AND I already talked to my teacher about it and he said not to worry about it. Wtf, now I gotta talk to him again next period.

Yesterday, I finally went running, like I said I would for the last 2 weeks. I'm hella out of shape, I could barely even run a freaking mile. I want to start running every day, but I can't cause I can't use the track and I have nowhere else. I played Bryan Castanares basketball yesterday and I won 7-0.

It's gonna be 76 on friday, 79 on saturday, and 80 on sunday. Its finally gonna be hot, I can't wait.

a.) You're hella bitchy sometimes.

It rained today...

and it sucked. We had a fire drill today, and when we got back to 3rd period, I started to feel like shit. I was hella tired, coughing and felt like I was about to faint. But then it got sunny after 5th period and I felt all better again. And I saw this cute girl that Cindy knows. Hopefully she'll introduce me to her :)

After school I played basketball, and I realized that I'm hella, hella short.

"Bryan and Jeffrey are the kids on the seesaw."
"Yeah, and Mr. Seals is the fat guy on the other end."

Today

was a rainy day, and I hated it. I woke up this morning and it was hella warm, so I thought maybe the weather people were wrong again, but i was wrong. It was freezing! And I didn't have a jacket. This week has been a stressing week, thank God it's almost friday. Hella homework this week, especially in chemistry. I'm at a 79.4% right now, but I know I failed my last test so it's probably down to a C now. Ugh, and scheduling was this week. I don't understand why they only give you 2 days to decide your future. I'm gonna die next year, I'm taking AP Bio, AP US History, Honors English, DBA, Spanish III, and Precal. But I know if I work my ass off and don't slack off, I can do it.

Andrew Bynum came back today and is playing for the first time since January 31st. He's looking pretty good, with 16 points and 7 rebounds halfway through the 4th. It's hella hard to match up with the Lakers now, they have 2 7-footers. And Bynum makes their defense hella better. I can't wait for the playoffs.

I hope tomorrow doesn't rain.

stupid people

piss me off. especially someone at lunch who won't stop talking shit. I just want to punch him in the face...

Anyways, we did scheduling for next year and i'm hella nervous. I'm taking ap bio, ap us history and honors english, I'm gonna die. Branden is funny when it comes to girls, he's such a pussy. I don't know what to write about. I'm in 3rd period right now and I'm hella bored. I need to start doing work in this class, i don't want to fail but its so boring. It's kinda sad how my life is so boring that I have nothing to write about... I need to meet someone new who can make my life not so boring.

Shit, I think I just pulled a muscle trying to stretch like Amery.

a.) We used to be so close, what happened?
b.) You're a good friend, I don't know what I would do without you.
c.) You need to man up.
d.) I'm about to beat your mufflin fluffin ass.
e.) I wish I could talk to you more.

Boredom

Causes me to do a lot of random things, like making this lol. I've always wondered what was so great about having a blog, I guess I'll find out.

Anyways, I didn't really care about trojan olympics until today, cause I just don't really have school spirit and our sophomore class has enough spirit already. But today, a bunch of juniors were talking crap about our class and I found out that they were cheating cause they didn't count the peace sign necklaces on tuesday and skipped a bunch of people, but they're making superman necklaces tomorrow and they're gonna count it. So at first I didn't really want to go to trojan olympics, but now I'm hella excited. I don't really care if we don't get first place, as long as we beat the freshmen and juniors.

Btw, we tied for 3rd with the freshmen today. That's hella sad.